up and down... but mainly up

Sorry that I have been a bit quiet on the update front. 

I've had a bit of a roller coaster weekend and last week, so just sort of spent the time trying to get my head round things and do all of the stuff that needed to be done...

So from last Thursday valentines day it's been amazing... So we have been accepted to go forward with an adoption from one of the localish LAs. So to be honest the rest of Thursday and most of Friday went by in a complete blur... That weekend I had my first shift on my own, it was quite possibly the worst night shift I have ever done in all of my nursing. Needless to say it was more due to staff then anything else... it was very annoying. That and not getting back until 9.30am the next day and doing the night again... Needless to say I didn't get chance to think a whole lot of about the amazing news we had had, and likewise sunday I spent the day in a state of half awake and not really knowing what was going on around me..

We recieved the pack of forms that we needed to fill in on monday or tuesday and set about filling them in as much as we can, granted still got a few bits to do, and obviously some of the stuff that is asked really did make my mood go a bit blurgh, but then it made sense again and life is good, I think it might be like this for a little while, especially as we are going through the process. Also realised that some bits are more eye opening then others.. such as the family tree... lol 

We wandered up to London in the week to get hubby's good conduct report from Romania... needless to say we took forever wandering about trying to find the actual consulate so that hubby could apply for it. It was very exhausting but it was a good day =)

The weekend we had friends who came to stay. It was a bit of an odd weekend, I worked friday night and then we went out Saturday evening and had an amazing meal out together, talking about everything, their life and changes and the obvious for us.. I then worked again last night.. and blimey it took me almost an hour and a half to get back.. it was a so annoying and to be honest I was almost dozing off in the traffic so was glad once I started getting out of the traffic and actually moving towards my home... 

But an update on the adoption thing to end this epic update of the world.. We have our first interviews in the next couple of weeks, they are the individual ones, to tall about our childhoods and the likes... We then have the training course at the beginning of march which will be good.. Got to go and speak to my manager at work about it at some point, which may need to be next week because work this week is well staggered...      

quick takes 8!

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~1~
We have been accepted... We will be adoptive parents... The local LA, that is advertising on the back of local buses has taken us on.. We even have the dates for the prep course, which are in March... so yay... just got to sort some shifts out and change some bits around but the case is we will be there and taking a huge step forward toward being parents. We are both bouncing around like complete loons... it is amazing...

~2~
My car has been a pain this week, after thinking the service and MOT would have sorted out the issue that was causing the damned service light to come on... but no... it didn't, so I had to take it back to the garage yesterday.. and well one of the glow plugs isn't working so I've got to take it back in next week to get the damned thing replaced... needless to say it is rather flippin' annoying... 

~3~
I got to spend some time at the nursery this week, which was good fun, it was very interesting to see some of the way that the children interact with each other, it all very good fun. We were playing with sparkly pink playdough this week, which was just odd, especially when I got home and still had bits of it stuck to me... 

~4~
This week I've been through a range of emotions, which have at times been very scary, granted I have also had huge highs... so I'm actually glad to be ending this week on a bright and cheerful mood... 

~5~
I've got my first shift on my own today... granted it's a night shift... which is a bit daunting, however I'm sure that it'll be fine and I'll get through the night with no issues, but obviously it's just being a bit 'ahhhh' but I'll be fine once I'm there =)

~6~
So this week has had valentines day in it... We actually had a pretty amazing valentines day, for the reason in number 1 as we actually had the initial interview and found out that they wanted to take us on all on this very special day, so it will be for the rest of forever remembered by both of us. We both got each other some little bits and pieces but nothing too expensive. I do however like my beautiful red roses that my wonderful hubby got me.. the card is very cool too =)

~7~
I'm looking forward to our holiday in 5 weeks, it's going to be good, and hopefully it'll be warm and sunny.. hehe I now have pretty much all of my clothes for the holiday ready... including some shorts that I've had to search high and low for..      

 

yes...

YES!!!!!!!!!

Poole have said yes to taking us on as adopters... and we have the dates for the next prep course... in March... 
Needless to say we are both over the moon and can't wait.. oh it's just amazing news...

   

disheartened

I am starting to feel very disheartened about this whole adoption thing, it's taking forever to actually even take steps in the forward direction. I do have my fingers crossed that Thursday brings everything to us that we want to hear, and will give us the step forward that we both want... but part of me has this dread that it won't and that we will have no options at all and adoption will be ruled out for us just like everything else.

I think the photo pretty much sums up how I feel, I know Hubby is being amazing and is keeping me going in a positive way and supporting me however I think we both feel like we are under water and slowly drowning in fear of us not having a family...

I think today has been pretty bad, possibly because I've been at the nursery and spent time with the wonderful kids there.. We were baking valentines cakes and playing with pink sparkly playdough.. hehe very fun.. Although mine really didn't look as good as the photo... wish it had but maybe next time it will... 

Haven't done a whole lot else, off to Brownies this evening and then home to play D&D and eat pancakes =D 

 

Quick takes 7...

Conversation Diary

 

 

~1~

I have started my new job this week. It has been absolutely knackering.. I feel like my brain has been pulled from its slumber, it's been good in a weird way... I am still getting used to the whole place and the way that it is but I'm glad that I am enjoying it.  So thumbs up to the amazing new job. However thumbs down because I haven't had chance to go to the nursery this week, working through out the week has sort of dampened this, however I am only working 3 days next week so I shall find myself a day to go and have fun there...

~2~

We heard from our local LA and they are not going to take us on which is a load of annoying poo! However we approached one of the other local(ish) adoption teams and we have an initial interview with them this thursday, so at least that might be a start in the right direction again... (Hopefully it'll be positive and they will take us on and we will get somewhere.)

~3~

I am currently in the middle of dying my hair.. and so I need to go and wash it out... I shall indeed carry on in a moment... so I now have dyed hair, I've gone for a sort of golden brown, which is very near to my natural colour...

~4~

I have lost weight again, which is a bit of a surprise to me, but then again it might be due to the fact that I am walking huge amounts at work, back and forward trying to find some of the more wandering residents that we have. It probably doesn't help that I don't seem to be eating large amounts at the moment, I got this weird pain in my lower right abdomen, I'm going with something to do with my digestion, however with my body it could be anything and possibly even my ovaries. I will be keeping an eye on it and going to the gp if I need to...

~5~

My book keeping course is going well, I feel like I am understanding it, and working well with it, got a load of homework to do for it, but I'm going to try and do it during the week next week as it'll see if I can still understand it and do it well.. so I will keep this updated as well.. lol

~6~

My car has had it's MOT this week, and it being it's first one I was a bit worried that it might be hugely expensive, however it wasn't that bad, having a service plan has paid well, I only had to pay £30 for 2 new tires, so I really can't complain at all.. so yay, at least my car is being good to me and I have no concerns with it now =D

~7~

We've been enjoying sexuary so far and well we've had a couple of days off but then again for us we don't mind, we will make it up no doubt.. lol... and anyway it's all fun either way.. 

Anywho that will do..        

just a weekend

Weekend...
I do like a weekend, especially one that I get to spend it with the Hubby and get to go out for a lovely meal with him...  

We had a plan. We went off to a local asda, we were going to get a load of clothing ready for the holiday, so went and grabbed some clothes and some nice food bits for our lunches over the next week. We decided that we were going to go out for a meal so didn't bother getting any tea stuff. 

I have now got some very lovely clothes ready for my holiday and likewise Hubby does too... 

In the afternoon I did some of the homework for my book keeping course, which didn't take me that long and I feel like I've finally getting my head around it.. which I have now managed to do =)

The evening we went off to a local restaurant which was very nice and romantic, we sat and had a lovely meal, enjoyed talking to each other and generally being a wonderful married couple =)    

Today he is off doing his walking thing, which to be honest isn't too bad, it means I was able to have a lie in (until 8.30am) and then spend the day relaxing and generally doing my own thing.

Quick Takes 6... and weekly adoption shout out

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I'm also linking up with Weekly Adoption Shout-out this week, granted we haven't adopted yet but it's what we are striving towards =) 
We've actually had contact from some of the LA's this week and it's been good to finally feel like they might be taking us on so we can start this journey proper or so.. Hopefully we should know by the middle of next week if our local LA is taking us on, if not we've started to put feelers out in other teams as well.. Just wish this hadn't taken so damned long, but unfortunately it has... We will get there and be parents one day...

2.
This week I have had an extreme mixture of emotions, I have been both happy and ecstatic and down in the dumps and depressed. It has been an odd roller-coaster, however it appears to be coming to more of a level plain at the moment which is obviously a damned good thing. My depression struck when yet another friend informed me that they were pregnant, Don't get me wrong I do feel very happy for them, I know that they have been along a bumpy road as well... so it did take some of the sting off but not all of it. The worst thing is you then see pregnant woman everywhere... 

3.
I've started my new job... granted it was indeed an odd start to a job.. I got to work at 9am.. (pretty normal) and no one there was aware that I was supposed to be starting... (uh ho) however... the nurse on shift was very happy to see me, he spent time ensuring I was ok and then he found me somewhere to go and have coffee, which I did whilst waiting for the manager to come in. An hour later, I was still sat there an hour later, when the manager came and found me, he was very apologetic, apparently, he'd completely forgotten that I was supposed to be starting today and that the matron was off as she'd been in on long days all week. Apparently she hadn't told him that I was coming in.. So I spent sometime with a couple of the carers, and then did some of the lunch time bits as well... Then I came home cause I was feeling worse for where because of this evil cold...

4.
I went to see the Phantom of The Opera on Saturday with my mum, and it was amazing. I've not seen an Andrew Lloyd Webber show before and it was amazing, so much so that we have now booked tickets to go and see CATS later in the year. The actual show was amazing, there was even an exploding chandelier. 

5.
My college course is still going well and I'm enjoying it, I seem to be able to get my head around the basic bits and pieces, some of it is very confusing and takes a lot of thought power but once I get the jist of it I feel far more confident. Got some homework to do for it and will set about it sooner so that what we went though is still prominent in my mind.

6.
I have had this evil cold which is driving me mad, I've had it for the past week or so... I've lost my voice a couple of times during this period which has been horrid, but at least it's sort of back now, well I'm croaky and sounding like a very husky woman, which is just very wrong.. lol

7.

I am struggling to actually find something interesting to put down for no 7... Nothing else seems to spring to mind.. I shall find a funny picture to put here...